Michelle Qureshi, wife of late apologist Nabeel Qureshi, has announced she is committed to continuing her husband's ministry after his death, as people "still need to hear the gospel."
Just a few weeks after losing her 34-year-old husband to stomach cancer, Michelle took to his YouTube video blog to reveal that the past few days have been a "flurry of administrative responsibilities."
"I didn't realize how much was going to be required for a completing paperwork when you're in the middle of grieving and emotional challenges," she said. "So, I really have a newfound appreciation for anyone who's had to do anything with handling an estate following the death of a loved one."
She added, "It's been crazy, and it's a lot to handle, especially when the one left behind is the one who never did the finances in the first place. So, I'm learning a lot. I'm grateful to say my dad has been here helping me tirelessly for the past ten days."
One thing that's encouraged her amid all the craziness, Michelle said, is the fact that Nabeel is in Heaven -- and thus doesn't have to deal with earthly difficulties anymore.
"Do I miss him? Yeah, absolutely, absolutely I miss him," she said. "But, what is so encouraging is that he will never have to deal with any of this stuff I'm dealing with ever again. You don't have insurance in Heaven, because nothing bad is going to happen, you don't have to deal with legal paperwork because no one is going to cheat or lie or do anything sinful."
Michelle said Nabeel, author of Seeking Allah, Finding Jesus and No God But One, also isn't worrying about her or their daughter, Aya, because "for first time, sees in full God's sovereignty, goodness, and trustworthiness when it comes to our care, when it comes to the care for all people of earth."
"It's kind of a strange thought, but it is encouraging knowing that...he's in a better place. That he doesn't have to deal with any of these things that I'm dealing with," she said.
Another thing her husband, who previously served with Ravi Zacharias International Ministries, doesn't have to worry about anymore is sharing the Gospel, Michelle pointed out.
"But then, that leaves us here," she said. "We are still here. People still need to hear the gospel, ministry still needs to continue. And in this video my main point to you is to let you know that I am committed to ensuring the continuation of Nabeel's ministry."
While admitting she's doesn't know "exactly what that's going to look like," Michelle said she plans to take Nabeel's resources and put those online in video form and share them through his previously opened social media pages and websites.
"It's an exciting prospect; it's kind of it's gonna be a challenge," she said. "There are other people who are gathering around me already to help ensure that this happens as, of course, I have my primary responsibility to Aya. And that will stay number one."
Michelle assured viewers that "there are things in the works" and welcomed others to partner with her as the Lord leads.
She concluded: "So, pray about it, keep your eyes open for in the coming week what God helps us to accomplish, but I want you to stay tuned and I will keep you updated as things progress. So, just know this: I am committed to continuing my husband's ministry and I do hope you'll join me, as well."
Nabeel posted over 40 video blogs after he was diagnosed with cancer in August 2016 up until the weekend before he died.
In his final video, he reflected on his ministry and said he hoped to leave behind a legacy of "love, peace, and truth."
"When we talked to people about our beliefs, we should do it through a lens of love, and the whole point should be to bring people together, to bring people together to the truth, and not to hurt one another, but to help one another."
He lamented that far too often, people use the information he shared to "undercut" one another.
"That has not been my intent," he said. "My whole point in teaching is for love to reign. So, as you consider my ministry, I hope it leaves a legacy of love, of peace, of truth, of caring for one another. That is my hope and my purpose behind this. If at any point, I have said anything that seems to contravene that, I do apologize and I hope that is not the legacy that I leave behind."
"Our God is a God of love. That should be what keeps us driven," he added later. "That should be foremost in our mind. So, whether you are talking to a Hindu, a Jew, a Muslim, a Christian, whoever you are talking to, may it be out of love."